Crazy little thing called love

Valentines’ Day as we know it has its roots in an ancient Pagan tradition that pre-dates the birth of Christianity. So indeed it is old – but not nearly as old as the notion of ‘love’ itself. Love has existed forever.

Here, I sit in the twenty first century, looking at the books on my shelf, from various works of philosophy and literature: Greek classics, Dante, Shakespeare, Jane Austin, John Donne, to name but a few… Add into the mix the various work of twentieth century psychology, and it is clear that we are still no closer to a collective understanding of romantic love. It seems as though it is one of those timeless things which decks the halls of “the unknown”, alongside other metaphysical traditions such as religion, ontology, cosmology etc…

As a society, I sometimes wonder if our need to understand, explain, or find reasons for things, can take away from the blatantly unexplainable. And for me, this is where love comes in. Somewhere between the artistic, romantic idealism and the intellectual, psychological theories, exists something that seems to provoke parts of you that no other can. It can feel both amazing and horrific all at the same time; the juxtaposition of excitement and fear. Not to mention the fact that it also makes you behave sometimes, like a crazy person.

There are two other articles on this blog about Valentines’ Day and Love, Attraction And the Five Love Languages, and Is Each Day Valentine’s Day?, both of which I recommend reading if you are looking for ways to help improve romantic relationship. In this article, I am going to focus more on the ‘being’ state of love.

Attraction is the central feature when we first meet, or start dating someone.  However, attraction in its many different forms can wax and wane. Often, physical or sexual attraction on its own will not last the test of time and can fade away within months. Equally, just liking someone on an emotional level is also not likely to sustain. But the two together are what makes attraction such a powerful pull on your life. And if both do co-exist, then when we are in a relationship with another, the act of giving ourselves in union, whilst also retaining our own necessary individuality, verges on seemingly  paradoxical territory. This, however, is what intimacy is all about.

Opening up and revealing yourself to another is possibly the most scary thing you can do. Maybe because when you really like someone, it feels like you have got so much more to lose. And the fear of this is real. Someone once said to me that she was effectively scared of her partner because she knew he had the power to hurt her more than anyone else: her vulnerability lay in his hands. So trust also plays a big role. If you find trust difficult for whatever reason, fears around intimacy can intensify. Trusting others with your heart or trusting yourself with others, are likely to be the result of past/life experience.  It can be a lonely place for people to be, and yet it is only through relationship (which includes intimacy), that such wounds can be healed.

In terms of the ‘sex part’, I am absolutely convinced that often, sex without love is easy. It is an act, albeit an enjoyable one, but one which, without intimate feelings can enable us to stay disconnected from the relational, emotional process.  And I think it is probably also fair to say that love without sex can to some extent be easy, because you can avoid going to those deep places: the depths of intense sexuality where we connect in mind, body and soul. This is where real intimacy comes alive – a place of pure uncontrolled instinct and connection. Both persons can be at their most vulnerable, and yet both also possess a magical strength that creates the true intimate moment within the act.

Some people try to put things into boxes, but if we accept it true that love is uncontrollable then this will never work.  If you can succeed in putting a lid on something, it surely fails to evoke much of a notion of its full and intrinsic power. And behind even the most caring relationships, there must exist a passion which explodes both positively and negatively. Passion in the latter sense can be difficult to understand, and certainly psychologically speaking, there has been much work produced on how we as people may be attracted to the ‘negative’ attributes of partners, because it reminds us of something from our past, or fulfils some of our childhood beliefs about ourselves (which works against us being in our fully functional ‘adult’ state). I guess there is an argument for saying therefore that passion can sometimes feel dangerous.

However, Fernando Barros says in her article on this blog Attraction and the Five Love Languages, that the “crisis” of love, can be also understood as opportunity. The differences between people and the conflicts it may give rise to, can be a good way to develop oneself. Maybe we reject or ignore our full potential as people, and become blinded to only one path. But, one of the greatest things about another person who loves and cares about you is that through their way of being, they can awaken some of the parts of you that you might neglect or even reject.   If you can find someone who really understands you, and can be compassionate and non-judgemental, whilst also helping you break out and fulfil your true potential – then, I think you are onto a good thing.

Finding a balance between passion on the one hand, and stable, commitment can sometimes feel difficult. Maybe they seem at odds which each other. But the one who has the power to arouse passion (both negative and positive), whilst remaining respectful and honouring of your vulnerability and personhood, will be the one who can fulfil and enlighten your soul. The immensity of this can at times feel uncomfortable, but the realness existing between your vulnerable self and your partner’s, creates a true sense of being alive. It is what distinguishes romantic love from any other ordinary love. We all want to feel “safe” in our partnership, particularly if we have had previous unsafe attachments, but actually the feeling of ‘unsafeness’ is the driving force behind the most intimate moments. Intimacy is giving yourself to another – safe because it is safe, yet unsafe because it is so scary. Perfect harmony exists, not in everything being ‘nice’, but in the balancing of opposites.

Writing this article, I have realised that never has the saying: “you have to lose yourself, to find yourself” meant so much.  Intimacy and love requires opening up and showing all of the self: the great, the good, the bad and the ugly.   A lot of this work has to be done from the individual themselves through growth, development and courage. The healthy relationship comes from a place of full acceptance of oneself as well as the other; the likelihood is that if you are shameful of yourself, you are likely to also be shameful of the other. But maybe also it is through believing that another person could really love you, for no other reason than that – just pure and simple love of one’s being, that we can release our full potential as both a person in our own right, and a person in relationship.

This Thursday, February 14th is a day couples either pointedly mark, or ignore. Of course if you do observe it, presents and special meals can be good in terms of celebrating your relationship. However, maybe for everyone this Valentine’s Day, a rekindling of what your partner means to you, and how they enrich your life, is a worthy starting point. Sometimes, it can be easy to forget the reasons we fell in love with someone, but keeping the intimacy alive with respect, love, passion and compassion, will always surmount all other gifts.

How do you feel when in a romantic relationship?  Do you think that you successfully balance the celebration of your love (be it on a special day, or continuously through dates/time spent together), with a deeper intimate connection?  Do certain songs, poems, works of literature, remind you of your partner? Please feel free to write in with any reflections.  And as ever, if anything has been evoked for you in this article and you want to gain more insight, here at The Awareness Centre we provide counselling for help with issues around trust and intimacy, couples counselling for partners to explore their relationship, and Psychosexual Therapy (from September 2013).

Caz BinsteadCaz Binstead is a qualified counsellor and member of the BACP. She currently works in private practice in Clapham, London, and also writes for Therapy Today magazine.

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